Education is the Key :)

After we get married,  start our family, and move away, we loose touch with the rest of our family and friends. I know we did. Having kids changes everything. Having children with special needs changes thing even more. Your twice as busy, with appointments, agencies, therapy, etc. The real issue is though, you go to family functions and well, when your child has a behavior and cant help it as he is having a sensory overload, and  that some of your family gives you the look, or tries to give advice. Well you end up leaving, feeling like you don’t belong, sad and mad, Barry and I felt that so many times, so we thought the best was to just quit going. This again is lack of knowledge on others parts, and not wanting to “cause” a scene and hurting others. I use to get very angry and well I will admit I have a mouth and can fly off. And I did not want to do that, so the best was…stay home.. Looking back now I wish I had done things differently, we had children young which was a good plan as I could not have done what I all did now. Now that I am older, I wish I would have explained things more, but you get hurt and think screw it, I am so tired of it . Its sad as then you grow away from family and friends and loose touch.

Don’t let that happen to you. You need to stand up for your children and explain to people why things happen. We thought that by doing this we were saving ourselves from the hurt and sadness for ourselves and our children. We all want to be accepted, and in order for this you need to educate people about the disabilities your children might have. Only then can people learn to accept what its all about. And well if they don’t, oh well then you move on and forget about those who are that way. Life for sure is a journey and its your attitude that helps make that journey special. I know that back then I told my Mom, I am NEVER going to a family function again, it hurts that my own family are giving me the looks and talking about us, I told her I was done with it. Well if I would have just not gotten so angry (I was angry because I was very hurt) and just maybe explained it thinks might have been different, even got up in front of all the family and did a presentation on Autism and helped them to understand, (that family function is big with alot of people). Back then I was to quick to get pissed off…LOL.. its amazing what age can do.

I actually did do a presentation at my church with our ladies group, I talked about the boys and there birth, the struggles and the diagnosis, and answered questions anyone may have had, I was so nervous when I did it BUT I did and it helped alot, it helped people to understand Autism and why the children act or do the things they do.  Also back then I did not know all I know now :).  we were excepted in our church with open arms, people understood and took the time to help and to ask if they did not know.  It was so awesome and I miss that, they were all like family to me 🙂

My advice is to don’t give up and explain to people why this happens, it might save you from feeling that your not welcomed into your family, or that your family does not love or respect you anymore. People do not realize what a look or a few words can do to someone, especially when they deal with a lot in life and are looking for acceptance.

I firmly believe that educating people is the way, so then no one feels hurt and not accepted.
I will tell you that well sometimes confronting does not work, as I did finally write and e-mail to a cousin of mine, with something that had happened at the last family function we went too and the way he acted.   Me having my own physical disabilities I am sometimes up late or cant sleep because of pain. Well I told him what he did and how much that effected my son and made him feel and how it made me feel, I got it all off my chest. His e-mail back to me was so socking and hurtful. He told me that I had the symptoms of an alcoholic, I read this and was like WTH, I started to cry and  so many things when through my mind,  I am on medication, I have chronic pain,  I don’t need alcohol,   I am so NOT an  alcoholic. why would you say that? what gives you the right to judge me this way? I was so upset, hurt and angry with this response I thought  Well I let it go..but  it did bother me, so finally I called my Mom and shared with her my e-mail and his response, She was floored at what was said,  she was so upset and wanted to tear a strip off of this family member, and I know I did nothing wrong but share how I felt, but to be told that I was an Alcoholic when in fact this cousin does not know me that well,  was very very hurtful.  Just because there are others in our family that are, you should NEVER EVER judge someone else by past experiences.  Like really,  this is when I so want to tell someone come walk a mile in my shoes and see what my life is all about.
This is when you need to let it go and move on, if people want to think you are like that then fine. Let them.  You cant let someone elses words take away your happiness, this is when it comes down to ignorance of people who are uneducated. They don’t know you obviously and don’t know the road you walk on. As long as you know who you are and so does God that’s all that matters. Words can hurt yes,  but this is when you need to educate people so they can understand better.  But as I said sometimes it does not work and you just need to let it go and know you stood up for yourself.  This is just one of the few encounters I have had over the years.  I want my children to take part in things, but again I want to protect them as well, I stopped going to the family functions as I was protecting our children from the ignorance of others and to be honest no one really paid them much attention so why should I go?? Just to be there?? To show that I care, I do care but why should I and my children be outcasted because they are not the “perfect” child?? Because they have a temper tantrum because there suffer from sensory overload (I found that out only a few years ago, I knew that was the problem but it takes so long to get assessments done), they can not help who they are, and why they do the things they do.  To Barry and I they are Perfect.  So in all honestly why would I take part in a family function when you get the “LOOK” or you see others looking and talking, when all your worried about is please dont have a melt down, please behave etc.  I have spent so many years trying to get my boys to behave a way that would please others, because of the way I was brought up, and the way one should behave.  I realized long ago that I had to stop doing that, stop trying to make my kids behave because really that is not going to happen.  Once I realized what I was doing just to please others, I myself became more relaxed, and well I thought these are my kids and if you dont like what happens then dont bother, if you wont take to the time to understand then thats your problem not mine.  If you take the time to understand, and educate yourself then sit down with my boys and talk to them, you will learn ALOT.  They are amazing kids, they have a great sense of humor, they are funny, loving, caring, kind, helpful, kids.  Sure they have there moment BUT dont we all, they just dont know how to deal with it the right way, so what, get to know them and I think you will be surprised 🙂  And always forgive the ones who have been rude, or ignorant as they just dont know.  And in order for you to move on you need to forgive that person for there actions.

Remember that Education is the key in order to stop the ridiculed behaviors of others.  And to the people who do not understand, Words are a very powerful tool and when you use them the wrong way it can really hurt, Educate yourself before you speak, and remember that lady in the grocery store who’s child in on the floor having a temper tantrum, well it maybe that he or she has a disability.  So dont judge when you dont know, we take our children with us for a reason, they need to learn and they have a right to be in society just like you do.

Have a wonderful day everyone, and I really hope who ever ready my blogs that I help in some way, and if you are suffering as well, I am her to help you through it. I have been there and I understand.

God Bless xoxo

Positive Affirmations

Positive Affirmations,

This I feel we don’t do enough of, do you know that with just one up lifting word you can make someone’s day a whole lot better? Did you know that sometime when you feel you need to call someone, or write them a quick e-mail, that it’s a message that they need some love that day.

There has been lots of times I have had it upon me to just write something short to someone, then I come to find out that what I said made there day.  Our words are very powerful, we can build someone up very easily or tear them down.  Sometimes with out even knowing we can hurt someone with what we have said, or did.
The worst of this is gossip, now that a subject that is very hurtful.  I could never understand why people need to do this, to talk about others, and to spread nasty rumours around about them.  I feel that when people do this, they them selves have issues and need to make others look bad so they don’t.  But little do they know that when they do these things that it can tear someone down so easily.. BUT only if YOU allow it.  That’s the point, if you allow someone’s words tear you down, it can be so crucial to your well being.  I myself have for years now listened to rumours about people and about myself, I use to let them get me down, but then one day it hit me, I am NOT this person, I DO NOT do that, I know who I am and so does God, so why am I letting this get to me?  I pondered about it for sometime and meditated on that, I came to the conclusion that well if that’s what they want to say so be it, I know who I am, people who know me well know who I am, and well this persons life is so filled with resentment and bitterness, they want to try and look good to others so they need to make other people look bad.. Oh that so wrong at my expense, but I know who I am so I need to not let this get to me.  Have you ever been in this kind of situation?? Its hard to swallow, BUT you need to look into yourself and know who you are, and know that God knows who you are and that’s all that matters.  Took me along time to get to this point, you need to hold you head high and remember that you are loved by many.  Each day look at yourself in the mirror and tell yourself that you are a creation of God, you are loved, you are special, and you will not let others bring you down.  And just know that when you are feeling down you can call upon God’s love to help you threw it.  But also pray for the person who is saying things about you.  I do believe in Karma and usually these things back fire.

But back to positive affirmations, you need to always lift yourself up and others, always believe in yourself.  Positive affirmations are positive sentences repeated many times in order to impress the subconscious mind and trigger it into action. These sentences describe a situation that we desire to happen, and are repeated many times, with conviction, attention and feelings. More than often people repeat negative sentences and statements, concerning diverse situations in their lives, and consequently bring upon themselves undesirable situations. Affirmations work both ways, to build and to destroy. They are a kind of a neutral power. It is the way we use them that determines whether they are going to bring good or harmful results.  I want positive results don’t you?? So here I have a list of some to help you in what ever you going threw, remember that when you are doing this, there should be no physical, emotional or mental tension while repeating them. The stronger the concentration, the more faith you have in what you are doing, the more feelings you put into the act, the stronger and faster will be the results. Never put yourself down as when you do you are telling your subconscious mind the negative and that’s when you start to believe it yourself, for example you desire to lose weight, do not say, “I am not fat, I am losing weight.” By saying this sentence you are repeating to your subconscious mind that you are fat. The word “losing” also evokes negative images. It is better to say, “My body has an athletic form, and weighs the right and healthy weight”. Such words evoke positive images in the mind. As to results, sometimes they may come fast, and at other times may take more time to manifest. Achieving results through the power of affirmations depends on how much time, energy, faith and feelings you invest in your affirmations, on how big or small is your goal, and on how strong is your desire.

By using the power of affirmations you state what you want to be true in your life. You see reality, as you want it to be. For a while, you ignore your current circumstances and your doubts, and concentrate on a different reality.  Hopefully this find you well, and remember to be true to yourself and others, uplift yourself always and think positive.

Positive Affirmations
– I am healthy and happy.

– Wealth is pouring into my life.

– I am flowing on the river of wealth.

– I am getting wealthier each day.

– My body is healthy and functioning in a very good way.

– I have a lot of energy.

– I study and comprehend fast.

– I am getting A’s in my exams.

– My mind is calm.

– I am calm and relaxed in every situation.

– My thoughts are under my control.

– I radiate love and happiness.

– I am surrounded by love.

– I have the perfect job for me.

– I am living in the house of my dreams.

– I have good and loving relations with my wife/husband.

– I have a wonderful satisfying job.

– I have the means to travel abroad whenever I want to.

– I am successful in whatever I do.

– Everything is getting better every day.


I received this e-mail and just had to share 🙂


Louise Redden, a poorly dressed lady with a look of defeat on her face, walked into a grocery store.

She approached the owner of the store in a most humble manner and asked if he would let her charge a few groceries.

She softly explained that her husband was very ill and unable to work, they had seven children and they needed food.

John Longhouse, the grocer, scoffed at her and requested that she leave his store at once.

Visualizing the family needs, she said: ‘Please, sir! I will bring you the money just as soon as I can.’

John told her he could not give her credit, since she did not have a charge account at his store.

Standing beside the counter was a customer who overheard the conversation between the two. The customer walked forward and told the grocer that he would stand good for whatever she needed for her family. The grocer said in a very reluctant voice, ‘Do you have a grocery list?’

Louise replied, ‘Yes sir.’ ‘O.K’ he said, ‘put your grocery list on the scales and whatever your grocery list weighs, I will give you that amount in groceries.’

Louise hesitated a moment with a bowed head, then she reached into her purse and took out a piece of paper and scribbled something on it. She then laid the piece of paper on the scale carefully with her head still bowed.

The eyes of the grocer and the customer showed amazement when the scales went down and stayed down..

The grocer, staring at the scales, turned slowly to the customer and said begrudgingly, ‘I can’t believe it.’

The customer smiled and the grocer started putting the groceries on the other side of the scales. The scale did not balance so he continued to put more and more groceries on them until the scales would hold no more.

The grocer stood there in utter disgust. Finally, he grabbed the piece of paper from the scales and looked at it with greater amazement.

It was not a grocery list, it was a prayer, which said:

‘Dear Lord, you know my needs and I am leaving this in your hands.’

The grocer gave her the groceries that he had gathered and stood in stunned silence.

Louise thanked him and left the store. The other customer handed a fifty-dollar bill to the grocer and said; ‘It was worth every penny of it. Only God Knows how much a prayer weighs.’

THE POWER: When you receive this, say a prayer. That’s all you have to do.

Just stop right now, and say a prayer of thanks for your own blessings…..

I believe if you will send this testimony out with prayer in faith, you will receive what you need God to do in your and your families’ life ..

So dear heart, trust God to heal the sick, provide food for the hungry, clothes and shelter for those that don’t have as we do. Amen & Amen

There is no cost but a lot of rewards.
May you always walk with Angels
God Bless!


Three things will happen to you this coming week:

(1) You will find favor with someone you don’t expect;

(2) You will be too relevant to be ignored;

(3) You will encounter God and you will never remain the same, Amen.

My prayer for you today:

The eyes beholding this message shall not behold evil, the hands that will send this message to others shall not labor in vain, the mouth saying Amen to this prayer shall laugh forever. Remain in God’s love as you send this prayer to everybody on your list. Have a lovely journey of life! Trust in the Lord with all your heart and He will never fail you because He is Awesome!


SO glad that February is almost done :)

Well I have made threw the 15 appointments this month.. YES 15…and OMG what a month it was.  For an update on my bladder/kidneys they are all OK.. thank god, it was a long wait for all the test to be done then with the weather and having to reschedule appointments.  But everything came back good :).  As for the cyst on my ovary i have to go and get a surgery done called a Laparoscopy done.  So we will wait on that one.  I am still waiting to hear back about my gallbladder, I have been having sharp pain on my right side under my rib cage and my Dr thinks it may be my gallbladder and if so it will be coming out, I have had a number of days when I have been in bed with the pain and vomiting.  Good grief will it ever end, seems like I go for a while and then all of a sudden BAM I have a lot wrong with me.  Just another hurdle life has thrown at me and we will get threw it 🙂

We got our youngest into see the  Psychiatrists as well and he has been doing very well with all his med changes.  We hope that we have gotten the right ones and his moods will even out  🙂 so far so good, its so nice to see him happy 🙂  We had a case conference with the school so everyone is on the same page so we can better help him 🙂 I am so very thankful for all the help we have with the school.  His teacher is a god sent.

I have not written about this but now I will.  In January we took a child in to our home, he is a teen with special needs, he has been kick out of his home 3times since October of 2012, poor lad come from an abusive home and with a mother who just does not understand his disabilities and feel that he is 16 and should know better.  Well he does not as he has a disability that prevents him from comprehending information and expressing himself as well, and he usually expressed himself with frustration which is taken by his mother as attitude.  I have a very hard time talking with this woman as she just does not “GET IT” I really feel for this poor boy as he has had a life time of being in the wrong and getting yelled at all the time, and the lack of understanding.  Barry and I are the type of ppl who cant turn our backs on others in need.  He showed up at our house in tears and so scared as he cant live on his own as he does not have the comprehension or the tools to do so.  He was on his own in a hotel room for 2 days before he came to our house.  I just don’t understand how someone can do this to a child who has a disability, someone who will not take the time to understand what this child is the way his is.  I kind of understand more now as when she eventually figured out he was with us she went off the deep end on the phone with me and told me to F* off and hung up, and about 5 minutes later called me back and apologized, but not once threw the conversation said thank you for looking after her son, all she did was say negative things about him and the things he did.  Now I know what kind of life he lived in this home. Very sad indeed.  He has a hard time opening up, but we are encouraging him to talk with us and telling him that he is a great kid (which he is) and that we can help him more if he does.  I have been told from his teacher that he is alot more relaxed now at school which is awesome.  I feel as time goes on he will come out of his shell and open up and he will also be able to blossom as he is now in a safe environment and loved and cared for.  There is a lot more that has gone on but i am sure you all got the picture. 🙂  The way I see it is Jesus would not turn any child away and neither should I 🙂

People ask me how I do it, well I guess I will have to say point blank, it is the strength from HIM that I can do what I do, I have no other way to explain it at all.  I live by the Bible verse

I CAN DO EVERYTHING THROUGH HIM WHO GIVES ME STRENGTH Philippians 4:13. I have been living this for years, I have a plaque on my wall I read every morning, I cant explain where my strength, courage, wisdom, patience, kindness, come from but with in.  I keep going down life’s path and where ever it takes me I know I am on the right track as I am a firm believer that everything happens for a reason. 🙂

Wishing you all a fantastic Monday xoxo

Looking back over our 20 years :)

Its really hard to put 20 years into a video. We have been threw so much in 20 years, all we have been threw has made us stronger, we were told because we where so young when we got married that we would not make it.. hmm.. guess we proved a lot of people wrong, we are still together, so much in love, and stronger than ever. Our love has grown over the years and we cant wait to see what the rest of our live brings us, we are in it for the long haul 🙂 I love you Barry xoxoo



A dog was so faithful that the woman could leave her baby with it and go out to attend other matters. She always returned to find the child soundly asleep with the dog faithfully watching over him. One day something tragic happened.

The woman as usual, left the baby in the “hands” of this faithful dog and went out shopping. When she returned, she discovered rather a nasty scene, there was a total mess. The baby’s cot was dismantled, his nappies and clothes torn to shreds with blood stains all over the bedroom where she left the child and the dog. Shocked, the woman wailed as she began looking for the baby.

All of a sudden, she saw the faithful dog emerging from under the bed. It was covered with blood and licking it’s mouth as if it had just finished a delicious meal.

The woman got angry and assumed that the dog had devoured her baby. Without much thought she beat the dog with a wood to death. But as she continued searching for the”remains” of her child, she beheld another scene.

Close to the bed was the baby who, although lying bare floor, was safe and under the bed where the body of a snake was torn to pieces in what had been a fierce battle between the snake and the dog which was now dead. Then reality dawned on the woman who now began to understand what took place in her absence. The dog fought to protect the baby from the ravenous snake.

It was too late for her now to make amends because, in her impatience and anger, she had killed the faithful dog. How often have we misjudged people and torn them to shreds with harsh words and deeds before we have had time to evaluate the situation?

This is called SIN OF PRESUMPTION Presuming things our way without taking the trouble to find out exactly what the situation really is. Little patience can drastically reduce major lifelong mistakes. Who Are You misjudging right now?. Don’t think what you think others are thinking. Take time to get the whole truth.

More frustrations and getting it out there

Ok I am SO tired of so many things, for one, people who do not have children with disabilities DO NOT understand at all.  I am so tired of people telling me how upset and disappointed they are in things my children have done.  All I have to say is walk a mile in their shoes, be in their minds, and try to function.  Live in there bodies and feel what its like. Do you really think they understand and know what they are doing at the time? NO.  Do you really think they are hurting your feelings purposely?? NO.  People need to either ask or educate themselves more, and stop the judging.

Another thing that REALLY gets to me is this : You need to have alone time with you and Barry, you need to get away, you need time together.  Ok for one, that is IMPOSSIBLE as who would look after the kids?? Oh sure i have had people say they would BUT I know for a fact that would not work out well at all.  No offense but, if you think its going to be a walk in the park well think again.  For one it would TOTALLY mess up routine, for two, you would not know what to do when a melt down happened.  And for 3 some have NO idea how busy our life is.  Thats one reason and the other one is lack of funds, we can’t pay for a vacation with buttons and a smile fokes.

I have a job that is 24/7, I put my kids before myself as they need me and their Dad in order to live, they are unable to take care of themselves, they can not handle change.  Barry and I don’t need some expensive vacation to reconnect.  As nice as it would be, we know that is not going to happen with the life we have unless we take the kids with us.

We excepted the fact a very very long time ago this is our life and to be honest we would not CHANGE a thing.  We spend time together in other ways, we ice fish together, we have our time when the kids are in bed, we spend time together, we talk all the time.  In the summer we camp, the kids wander off where we can see them and we spend time together.  And to be honest we are so tired most times that we just enjoy curling up on the couch and watching T.V.  The fact is that we have a very busy, draining life and we cant change it, these are the cards we have been dealt with and well you manage, you cope the best you can.  Taking trips, going away is the last thing on our list.  We are in this life for a very very long time, we have accepted the fact that our children will probably live with us for the rest of our lives, there may not be weddings, grandkids, etc.  But we are not looking that far in the future, we live one day at a time, sometimes one moment at a time.

All we ask is that people are happy for us, we are happy, we have a life that we have made and we are truly happy, content, peaceful.  We are so tired of the judging, assuming, the remarks.  If you don’t understand then ask, if you still don’t understand then don’t say anything at all.  I know I am doing what is right for my family and we know we don’t live a “normal” life, what ever that is, we are not like others, we are ourselves and we are happy.  We have amazing children who love us, who are caring, helpful, respectful, and sometimes they have there moments but we all do, they need people who have patients and understanding, not people who judge everything they do or say.   I have a very awesome team of people who help us as much as they can, from various organizations, Physicists, Doctors, Case Managers,  Counselors, Teachers, Family and Friends, that understand, listen and support us anyway they can and thats all we ask for in life.  We get so much positive affirmations from them and that’s what helps us to keep on, and keep positive.  That is what we need in life is people who understand, who support us by there kind words and positive thoughts.  We HAVE to stay away from negative people, and negative thoughts, and negative words as we have a lot on our plate to deal with everyday and those things are not part of our lives.  We can not be part of people who bring drama and negativity that they cause them selves.  I know everyone has things in there lives that they are going threw, but when its things that you can not control that is different.  When it something that you can change to make your life and others around you better than change it.  We cant change our children, we cant change the cards we have been dealt with, but we can control and change the environment and the people in it.  We are and have done so as we cant afford to have our children subjected to negativity as they already have a hard enough time as it is. We need people who are going to support us and bring positive energy around us.

Life life to the fullest, change your prospective on life, change your attitude towards life and think positive.  Those who do positive things will happen 🙂

Have an awesome day and do something nice for someone today, weather it be a phone call to an old friend, a positive note to them, tell someone what they mean to you, take a family member out to lunch, go visit someone.  Do something for someone today as you have no idea what how much that will mean to them.  One positive thing can totally change how someone is feeling. xox oxo

WOW sorry everyone its been a crazy few months

Well what a few months I have had.  Life in our house is never boring that’s for sure, I have been so frustrated and stressed to the max.  So I will tell you what has been going on.

SO it started with myself and well my bladder issues, I get chronic bladder infections, it started with a x-ray of my kidneys and bladder, well they found out I have one kidney bigger than the other and a huge scythe on my right ovary, so then it starts with a trip to the pee pee Dr (that what I call him) and an appointment to see a gynecologist which is scheduled for next week.  So my first visit to the pee pee dr is to talk about what going on, he then wants to do this test on me called a cystoscopy, done in the OR your awake with freezing. The insert a camera to look at your kidneys and bladder.  So mean while I am going through this we are having big time behavior problems with our youngest son. Calls from school and his emotions are all over the map.  He is so unpredictable, they have upped his med in hopes to help.

So i go to the appointment and let me tell you I had no idea what to expect, all I kept thinking was OMG they are going to put a needle down there to freeze it LOL.. THANK GOD that did not happen, they put freezing in there with a syringe and then go in with the camera while they pump your bladder full, and of course on the way to the hospital for this appointment i get a call from the school, he is acting up again, great well I don’t really have time for this.  So I get to the OR, he goes is and finds that i have a duplex left collecting system, plus the possibility of having urethral reflux, which I went for another test for that one.  I will find out tomorrow as I go to see the pee pee dr to discuss with him what is going on and what my options are, oh at to add to that my urine incontinence is back. Ok so that one thing out there, now back to my son, we have been having some issues with him for some time, we know he is developmentally challenged, with mixed receptive and expressive disorder, major depression, psychosis NOS (not other wise specified) which I think that was given to him as the dr in the hospital did not know what was really going on.  So to back it up a bit, since last January we have been having some problems (I hate using that word, but I don’t know how else to say it).  We found out that he had been cutting himself for 2 years, he was suicidal, then the voices started and things kind of got worse from there. Then he was hospitalized for 7 days.

So last week we find out that he has been smoking pot.  He tries so hard to fit in, and the fact that he is so easily talked into doing something scares the hell out of me,  and the fact because of his mental illness he has a hard time with his though pattern, as it impair the way he thinks.  He has such a difficult time with so many things and smoking pot will only make things worse for him as it can send him to another psychotic episode.  So he was suspended for a week because he was caught at school.  Aghhh.. he is such a good boy, he is caring, helpful, thoughtful, it so saddens me to see all this happening to him.

So yesterday we FINALLY got into see a physicist for him we had been refund to a program called Early Intervention to psychosis, and along with this program is a Physicist attached, and we had a good long talk, he said that he feels he is between  schizophrenia  and bi polar disorder, so we have changed his meds around to help with his moods, and sleep and we see him again in a months time.  So this is where i am at, dealing with my son, dealing with my health issues and all the appointments that come with it.  I still have more tests to go through, more doctors appointments to find out whats going on with myself.  I told Barry that I wish they could just scan my whole body and fix it all at once LOL.. We will get through it as we always do, Barry and I have such a strong relationship and we have been through so much already that I feel we can get through anything. 🙂

Again I do apologize to all my readers for talking such a long time to blog again, I will try harder to blog more often.  I should be as I can get it all out there when I do.

Have an awesome day everyone